Happiness Exercise Number 8

1. Was happy to talk to mom for a little bit. She loves me, even though I am always depressed. I am grateful for her

2. Glad sis called me back and let me whimper and go on with self-pity. lol. I made her worry, which is evil, but her concern was what I wanted. I want to feel cared about. I am grateful for her love

3. Am amused and comforted by Ivan's attraction to me, although I had to turn him down. That I have the power to attract remains something I am grateful for, and continues to both surprise me and give me some comfort.

4. Just got off the phone with Jonathan. We had a long hour conversation that might as well have been an hour-long tea. Such a comfort. He and Leo are such happiness and kindness in my life. Absolute joy

5. Day three of Zoloft, and it has definitely cut the edge off. Yeah, I still had a rough day, but I did not spend the whole day crying like a maniac. I felt down, I struggled, I forced my way through part of the day. Which is a huge achievement compared to the past

6. Am excited for the Filipino American History Month Celebration at the Asian Art Museum tomorrow w/Jaena!

7. Grateful for Coffee Break French

8. My fever is relaxing. I think I am getting better.

9. My conversation w/Jonathan allowed me to remember some of the lovely memories I last had with A. Him kissing my hair and murmuring "baby" while half-awake during the night. The way he kisses my hand. That he insists our connection is more than sex. That he says "I'm quite in love with you." I guess "quite" means "very." Thinking about all this makes me so happy. Happy as a kite.