Happiness Exercise Number 11

1. I had a very unhealthy breakfast (lechon and adobo rice) but I made up for it by having broccoli and slimfast for dunch. I'm quite proud of myself for that. My appetite is practically non-existent because I feel ill. But still. I feel a relief when I can manage to make myself eat some broccoli. Large amounts of broccoli.

2. I saw Janny and Queenie last night. We have managed to stay in touch over the years. Seeing them is like having a bit of my heart replaced. We're not super besties, but I care about them a lot, and I want them to be okay. I want them to be happy. I love them. Janny stayed over for a little bit, and shared a bit of her heart with me. I love her and want her to be okay. Too much suffering in this world.

3. The meeting for anthro was relatively painless

4. Feeling ill, so I napped earlier today. Being gentle with myself

5. Keep reminding myself how uninvested I am with this particular round of applications. That helps a lot.

6. Caroline loves me. She still tries even though I am hyper sensitive and super self-centered

7. Mom loves me still.

8. Seeing Roxanne, Daniel, J.P., and Soiyon, Olivia, and Daniel II, and Tita Tess was therapeutic for me. It did me good to be away.

9. I survived my time with A. He introduced me as his girlfriend. His best friend Bobby said I was a keeper. His gal/best friend Gloria seemed to like me. Her boyfriend flirted with me (ugh). The boyf liked me too much. The last night I was over A was impatient to have me join him in bed so he could wrap himself around me. He said he loved me very much.

10. He called me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We spoke for a decent length of time on the phone. The longest conversation ever! At one point I told him how weird it was to see him at swing, and he was like, "Why? Does it weird you out that I'm there?" And I was like, "Yeah, because swing's sort of been my world..." and he said, "Well, knowing how much that matters to you, baby, I want to be a part of it..." SIGH. He asked when he can see me again, and said we should do something fun. I am too ridiculously high

11. I'm someone's girlfriend!! I'm someone's girlfriend? This is soooooo weird/absurd! He's my boyfriend! AIFHP:ADFHAIFB:ASnvclKSvnlkvb;sihgso That's what he is, allegedly! I can barely make sense of it. I find the entire thing too absurd. Too strange. Too weird. I am happy, but happy the way you would be at the theory of Santa Claus being real. It's unreal. Every time things are good with him, things are unreal. When things suck, it hurts beyond anything. Hmm. He did tell me he was falling in love with me on the third date. *sigh* I think I am only now starting to allow myself to enjoy that.