Fascinating! Wacko!

"'Fascinating! Wacko!' is how Jean-Pierre Rehm, general delegate of the Marseille International Documentary Festival, described Morgan Dews's "Must Read After My Death," the winner of the International Competition's Grand Prix."
-Joan Dupont

I am adding "Must Read After My Death" to my list of documentary films that I've been wanting to see. The title of the article where I got the above quote is: "Family tapes lay bare a domestic horror show." Titillating, isn't it? I can't watch it now. Too scared. Maybe in Halloween time. The typical existence of horrific circumstances within supposedly comforting, safe, loving institutions is scarier than any horror movie. I am fascinated with this film because it makes me think about the creepy murky secrets within my family...and it makes me feel normal. Although the articles about this movie suggest a sort of...hysteria and judgment in it's understanding of the film, I think it might be more useful to see how usual it is that families are not perfect. They just aren't. They are often harborers of terrifying and depressing secrets. But they persevere, and they leave legacies on people. It's usually from these legacies that really lovely, profound, and slightly crazy people are made.

I haven't been sleeping because I've become obsessed with my anatomy class. A few hours of sleep have become normal for me. So has the sudden attack of exhaustion that will hit me in the middle of the day. At one point I was obsessed with my bio class, but anatomy has taken over. When I looked at myself in the mirror I didn't recognize myself. My eyes have dark circles and my face looks slightly warped. That was when it hit me that I need to get more sleep. But despite my haggard outer shell my spirit is happy and excited. I got an A on the first Anatomy quiz and it has made me a ridiculously joyful idiot. I have never received an A on a science quiz in my entire life. I am over the moon. So now I am obsessed with maintaining high marks. It's so bizarre. I am actually considering canceling my netflix subscription. It might actually happen. I only have eyes for science these days. Fascinating! Wacko!