Happiness Exercise Number 10

1. I must take solace in the fact that I am PMSing...that I should be getting my period soon. So that could be the sole cause of my intense loneliness for the past couple of days. I am not a horrid person who has irrational feelings. My feelings are directly connected to a surge in hormonal changes that reflect that I am female. And being female is a great thing.

2. I went to court and got the whole thing over with. It's over, and I can now move on.

3. I am not talking to a certain person, despite his two phone calls today. I feel it's a step in the right direction. I deserve better from a friend. I am treating myself with respect by putting my foot down. It is really hard for me to do that. Far easier to be a rug. I am giving myself respect.

4. I finally managed to get comfortable w/Coffee Break French's second episode.

5. I drank a lot of water today. A lot. That's good, I think.

6. A highway patrol officer dude was actually a bit kind to me as I was crying miserably at the courthouse today. He said words of sympathy, and they touched me. Not all men in such positions are evil. He was sweet.

7. Had a long conversation w/a friend I rather take for granted, but it was actually a bit of a comfort in the end. I never give her credit, but it was actually a relief.

8. I was going to say there are absolutely no films I am looking forward to, but there's a film w/Sendhil Ramamurthy coming out in a bit. YUM

9. No matter what happens to me with A, I have my Caroline, some friends who love me and think I'm better than he is, and a heart that is stronger than it seems. I will survive him no matter what.

10. A is arriving tonight, and he wants to see me tomorrow! I am not sure if my body is strong enough to see him. I have been trying to recuperate as fast as possible, but I still get chills and exhaustion at random times. Maybe he will be forced to wait until Thursday, when my period is full blown. lol.

It will be alright. I will be alright. No need to despair. I will be okay.