Happiness Exercise #6

1. Maid of Honor duties give me a sense of purpose. And being needed. It's draining as hell, but I like being needed. I think I had a good time with my friend today

2. Got to have Filipino food today. Always a reason to rejoice

3. When I was with him, I wasn't afraid of him anymore. I spilled my guts. And he responded as if he was taking notes, memorizing what I needed and wanted. Attentive. It's weird how he acts as if I am the one keeping us from seeing each other more than once a week. He is a fucking alien. Anyway. It was wonderful. I was so happy. He does these sweet things that make me drown with happiness. I felt drunk with joy with him.

4. He wants me to meet his sister!!!!!!!!!!! And he's mentioned me to her! AAAAACK! HAPPY AS HELL OVER THAT

5. First time experiencing acupuncture. Not a deus ex machina experience, but new and different. I now have a tincture to drink twice a day to relieve me of anxiety and depression. We shall see if it works. I feel as if I am slowly gathering an arsenal of protection against the demons within me

6. Grateful for sis for checking on me all day. GRATEFUL!

7. Got message from Sheryl to hang out soon. She has been trying to hang out with me a lot lately. It honors me that I have intelligent friends who care about me

8. Going to LA soon. Scared and happy. It will be good to have a break from him because it's like he's cast a spell over me.

9. He spoke again about me moving in with him. It's bullshit and fucking absurd, but it makes me sooooooooooo happy. I wish mom's voice saying "Why doesn't he just ask you to marry him?" didn't pop up in my head when he says stuff like that.

10. Have lindyhop to look forward to next Tuesday. Can't wait