Geezus

OMG. How am I going to survive the quiz on Thursday? I am not studying, and I feel miserable sick. This weather is making me batty, and my PMS is making me sentimental and sad. I need to suck it up and study. Must remember that there are people out there who I love and love me. Must think about Tita Bits and Sonia, the two women who took care of me as a baby. Must think about Lolo and Lola. It's gotten to that. I have to think of people who loved me at my most vulnerable state, and meditate on being cared for, in a womb-like manner. Must think about Manang Fe, the wonderful Tita/Lola who always tells me, with fierce-ness in both voice and eyes, "We LOVE YOU!" Must think about the precious gifts of friendship given to me by many people. Must think about Lola Puring, Charlotte Zelka, and Carmen Covington. Women who have passed away, whom I miss and love, women who have touched my heart. Must use love as a shield to help my body/mind heal so I can focus on my goals, my dreams, and this damn quiz.