Poker Face

I'm in the strange position of liking someone who likes me back. It's happened before, but it's been a while. I've been out of the game for a while. For years. It's been years since I've had a crush crush...and I was hoping I could just enjoy this one for what it is. I don't really want anything from this. I can't picture myself with this person at all. It's too weird. But he has thrown signals my way, and I am both drunk with excitement and also freaked out. I kind of want to hide in a cave until he leaves. I have been praying that I can keep my head on straight and focus on school and my goals, and not get distracted by ridiculous attractions. Here I am with a ridiculous attraction that is returned. I am not ready for this at all. I think I am just enjoying the attention. I know nothing about this guy, other than the fact that he's very smart and has a supportive clique of also smart friends. And that these buncha fellas seem very masculine to me. I need to focus on school.