Proprioception

Professor DB looked into my eyes for a long time during class today. She was demonstrating/explaining how the right and left lobe works in facial and name recognition, and she used me for her demo. She stared into my eyes while she spoke...the demo went on for a rather long time. Instead of getting squirmy and weird under her steady light brown-eyed gaze, I felt entirely comfortable. I was like a flower that was basking in the sun, opening it's petals as wide as it can, trying to absorb the sun rays with a wide petalled hug. I really like this teacher, and I was taking that moment to let her know with my eyes. There are so many things we do not say. It is taboo, it is uncool, it's just not said. I have had so much negative experiences with science teachers in the past that I expect them to treat me really badly. But I really like this teacher. She's a revelation. I think I was comfy under teacher's gaze because her gaze was so friendly. An "appreciative glance"is how Dr. Schwyzer would call it. Versus the "penetrating gaze." But this was a steady and appreciative gaze. I felt appreciated. It felt good. I think she was admiring my eye makeup. It was kinda flashy today.